Occasionally the time apart
would be longer than
we’d both hoped for,
and the time together
would be far too short to
tell all the stories
brave all the adventures,
and relive all the memories,
but we’d leave just as happy.

I want to wake up at noon,
call in sick to work
and make you breakfast
in bed,
before your beautiful eyes
even see the sun,
your nose will smell the
eggs
coffee
and toast.

After that I’ll massage
your back,
kiss your neck,
and play it by ear.

I want to then take you
to lunch out on the pier
where we first met.
I’ll have the fish n’ chips
and you the clam chowder.
We’ll then lie back in our chairs
and bask in the sun.

I want to get you the ice cream,
you always told me to get
from the store;
third aisle on the right,
with the extra nuts and chocolate!

At the end of the day,
I want to realize that you’re in
my arms to stay,
for good this time perhaps.
We’ll watch a movie and fall
asleep again in each others arms.

I think more than anything though,
I want to call you up,
and quit dreaming about
what might have been,
and instead think of what I
should have done.

I want to tell you that I didn’t
want you to leave.
As much as I said I didn’t mind,
it wouldn’t hurt,
I didn’t feel
the way you did
about the way we were.

I want to find that love again.
The love I gave up for nothing.
My life isn’t the same now
realizing that you’re not here
to make my dreams a reality.

I keep telling myself that
I’ll find you again,
and our lives will again mesh,
the way it did when I first
touched your lips.

I want to believe in “us” again,
and I want you to believe
I didn’t mean what I said
when I told you I didn’t
feel the same way.
Because “the same way” is making
my heart fall out of my chest
every time I think of you,
or smell something with your
scent remaining on it.

It’s where you met your best
friend,
and your worst enemy.
It’s from where you watched your
brother split,
finding love and success outside;
hoping to follow soon.
It’s where you watched your sister
fall in love,
and fall to her knees when he left,
but surge on because of your plight.

It’s where you saw your family,
falling apart,
for the worst reasons,
and shed tears that still
occassionally fall.

This is the place that you made
friends with so many,
and lost touch with nearly all,
but the ones that you’ve kept,
will be a friend till the day
you die,
and they will be there to
cry for you
when you leave,
and that’s a friendship
that you should cherish
in the deepest sense.

This is the place that you fell
in love,
with the girl that was destined
for bigger and better things,
but she stayed with you,
though a lot of
“thick and thin,”
cause you made her mind believe,
and her heart weep.
But we weren’t meant to keep that
love,
as we both moved on,
and blossomed,
creating and developing
how we both thought we would
in the back of our minds.

There are so many recollections
I’m sure you have about this town.
So many sights and sounds
that’ll always stir up a memory,
but you’ve had your fill of it!
Bust out!
But in doing so,
remember the people that gave you
this chance to see the world,
change a handful of lives,
and to love again!

Some still live in the same house,
the same life,
and the same view,
that they’ve always enjoyed.
They may have not had the
curiosity,
the desire,
the hope,
the dreams,
that come in some of us.

Big dreams
in a small town
won’t work.
Sometimes big dreams in a big town
don’t work.
Find the balance,
think big,
live tomorrow today,
live today
thinking that tomorrow
might make yesterday
a little nervous!

Just last week I got
hit by another falling
bottle of fine wine
and woke up the next day
covered in party favors!

Boy, they sure seem to
never slow down.
I had an invite once,
to come up and join them,
but I second guessed it,
stayed home
and watched celebrity poker.

Maybe I should have taken that
chance though.
I’m too passive to get in the flow though
and just get up and go!
I get caught up doing what I always do.
Never setting foot outside just doin’
the things I always do.

They’re always laughing and smiling,
never having worries,
that hold you back,
keep you down,
lay you flat.

The inviter told me that
it’s like hearing your
favorite joke
for the first time,
over and
over
and over again.

Or maybe it’s like sleeping
out on a camping trip,
waking up
morning light,
warm,
hitting your face,
opening your eyes to the
deepest,
cleanest,
mountain breath
your lungs have ever tasted,
and you smile and realize
that this is a moment
you’ll want to live
1,000 more times!

Bustin’ out your worst,
not knowin’ or carin’
the result,
of the words your spin,
droppin’ dirty f-bombs
like you’ve never been.

Sometimes it just needs
to happen though!
It’s beggin’ to get out,
needs some feeds,
as it breathes,
asking for a chance to
show what’s hidin’,
kept from shinin’.

You’ve gotta let him out though,
or somethin’ worse might
happen.
He’s angry and wants to rage
at somethin’,
anythin’.

Can’t talk to him,
won’t talk to her,
just gonna let it sit,
in wait,
till somethin’ pushes
too hard, and again
it’ll bubble up,
askin’ to be set free,
wantin’ to see
goin’ on a blasphemy spree,
one,
two,
THREE!
Hell, this ain’t me!
I don’t agree!

Oh, it’s you,
I guarantee!

Keep it in and breathe,
Don’t let him leave,
tryin’ to deceive,
wipe it on your sleeve!

In your arms
as you wake.

You decide whether
they’ll be
shown to everyone,
or kept in the back
and taken to the grave.

It’s a choice everyone
has had to
or
will have to
make in a lifetime.

You decide whether
they’ll be
shown to everyone,
or kept in the back
and taken to the grave.

It’s a choice everyone
has had to
or
will have to
make in a lifetime.

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Nothing left
in a body full of love,
I just couldn’t let go of,
the person I thought most of.

Cold wind blew through my hair,
an icy stare
is all that was there,
and I could hardly move.
How badly I wanted to be home,
but my bones wouldn’t budge
to make the trudge;
my head was spinning,
but this was only the beginning.
My blood was spilling
but I could still hear that voice
calling me home
when I had no choice
but to lie there in the snow.

Ice slowly mixed its way into my veins,
Throughout life never so many pains,
in my legs and stomach,
but more in my heart;
as I firmly believed that I’d never
look into your beautiful eyes again ever
from now to eternity.
I’d have to fight my way through the night.
Pray for morning light,
to help me into the arms of the one that made me
the most important part of their life.

As the night went on,
thoughts of us kept me alive.
Hoping that the sun would find me
and your love would warm me.
I met you when I was so young,
I hardly remember it well,
but the memories made then
live long in my head again,
praying to make more when
I come to and feel your soft hand.

This morning the sun won’t break through though,
all that the sky brings is more snow.
God, please let my love know
I really didn’t mean to let go;
but my face is cold,
my heart is faded,
I tried to be bold,
and keep hold
but my life has been told.

As I drifted off to sleep,
the tears froze and I could only weep,
I vaguely remember seeing you,
though my frozen eyes,
slush in my mouth
made of blood and tears,
I’ve kept in for too many years,
from the night I lost you.

You ran to me and called my name.
I heard you
but I couldn’t tell you,
I saw you
but I couldn’t hold you.
I loved you
but I couldn’t kiss you.

I longed for you that night,
as I put up my hardest fight,
but in the end, passed on into the light,
hoping to see your eyes one last time,
as you held me in your arms so tight.

I know I did though,
see you that last time,
as your warm tears met mine
on my frozen face.

You put me in the car,
taking me onward,
but I’d already gone upward.