When we met that is all we ever had,
Good times,
Good laughs,
Fine nights,
No fights.
The only face I ever saw was smiling
And eager to help
At any time, in any way
The only part I ever saw
Was only the best of you

There were always good days and bad
Remembering the times we had
Finding ways to make you smile,
Ways to make you laugh,
Ways to make you cry
To make you believe you had my love
From the start
Never to die.
All I could ask for is that you give me
Everything that I have given you,
Everlasting, nonstop, I try to find,
The best I have in me,
Is the least you’ll get from me,
But it seems as though you’re not giving
The only thing I’ve ever wanted,
The only thing you used to offer was
The best of you.

Crying out I could never find the stop
Where it skipped
Where I faltered,
Where I missed,
When I cried,
You weren’t there,
When I left,
You didn’t care.
It seems as though
you think I’ve missed,
Something I was never meant to find.

Am I missing something
Are you headed elsewhere,
Not letting me know,
Where you’ve been,
Where you’re planning to go?
Is what is best for you
Not best for me
Are you giving the best of you,
To someone that isn’t me?

All I’ve tried to make work
Has taken all I’ve got,
To put into a pot I might not
Ever find the pieces that I’m losing
In this non-stop
uphill battle -
Finding out that you aren’t looking to
Build a home or strengthen a bond,
But more so to convince me that
I’m not the one that will make the life
You’ve wanted to have -
Ultimately leading me
to believe the best of me
has been duped and shrouded,
Deceived and lost,
Fallen and broken,
By the best of you.

Of ideas
Of time
Of reasons to stay
Of excuses
Of patience
Of prayers to pray.

I’m out of tears
I’m out of lies,
I’m out of guesses,
I’m out of bad advice,
Ideas that aren’t good enough,
Dreams that aren’t big enough,
A life that isn’t good enough.

I’m out of my mind
Thinking about where we are heading,
Trying to put pieces in order
When they’re scattered and floating
Further apart with every day.

You walk out
Slip by,
Ignore what is needing to be said.

I’m out of concern,
Of reason,
Of doubt,
Of love.
Of this relationship
Cause it is not working…