It’s amazing to think back,
about how we were
always together
living life,
loving love
and hoping for the future.

At one time,
it looked so bright,
but times change
when you’re not around,
people change,
lives change.

You chose a different path,
we both understood
that we were too young,
and needed to realize
our aspirations,
ahead of our dreams.
If we were meant to be,
there’d be a place for
us both
in each other’s arms,
if our hopes stay true .

As much as I tried,
I couldn’t tell a lie.
You drifted away,
and our lives took shape;
not the shape we had chosen
such a short time before,
but life had unfolded.

We had an amazing run,
loved deeper than anyone,
live happier than most,
in that city by the coast.
You’ve left me with more
memories of the good times,
very few of the bad,
and a love I will compare
all future relationships to.

They’re not resting in your
bedroom on your bed,
or in your living room
on the mantle,
in clear view
for everyone to see,
and everyone to grasp.

That’s why their passions,
and not hobbies,
and not everyone has them.
You’ve got to search for them
most of the time
giving them your undivided
attention at times,
realizing that they’re what has
driven you here in the
first place.

Stumbling on to the boat has
happened in life,
but it’s rare!
Searching out and catching
a whiff of what you dare
to dream will lead you far.
Follow the scent to your prize
and see what you’ve been
envisioning all this time!

The more time you put into
what you’ve found,
the greater the reward
you’ll reap!
Life provides many opportunites,
in its short span,
but hides that
which give the most pleasure
deep in its forests,
hoping you’ll do
the foraging.

Occasionally the time apart
would be longer than
we’d both hoped for,
and the time together
would be far too short to
tell all the stories
brave all the adventures,
and relive all the memories,
but we’d leave just as happy.

I want to wake up at noon,
call in sick to work
and make you breakfast
in bed,
before your beautiful eyes
even see the sun,
your nose will smell the
eggs
coffee
and toast.

After that I’ll massage
your back,
kiss your neck,
and play it by ear.

I want to then take you
to lunch out on the pier
where we first met.
I’ll have the fish n’ chips
and you the clam chowder.
We’ll then lie back in our chairs
and bask in the sun.

I want to get you the ice cream,
you always told me to get
from the store;
third aisle on the right,
with the extra nuts and chocolate!

At the end of the day,
I want to realize that you’re in
my arms to stay,
for good this time perhaps.
We’ll watch a movie and fall
asleep again in each others arms.

I think more than anything though,
I want to call you up,
and quit dreaming about
what might have been,
and instead think of what I
should have done.

I want to tell you that I didn’t
want you to leave.
As much as I said I didn’t mind,
it wouldn’t hurt,
I didn’t feel
the way you did
about the way we were.

I want to find that love again.
The love I gave up for nothing.
My life isn’t the same now
realizing that you’re not here
to make my dreams a reality.

I keep telling myself that
I’ll find you again,
and our lives will again mesh,
the way it did when I first
touched your lips.

I want to believe in “us” again,
and I want you to believe
I didn’t mean what I said
when I told you I didn’t
feel the same way.
Because “the same way” is making
my heart fall out of my chest
every time I think of you,
or smell something with your
scent remaining on it.

It’s where you met your best
friend,
and your worst enemy.
It’s from where you watched your
brother split,
finding love and success outside;
hoping to follow soon.
It’s where you watched your sister
fall in love,
and fall to her knees when he left,
but surge on because of your plight.

It’s where you saw your family,
falling apart,
for the worst reasons,
and shed tears that still
occassionally fall.

This is the place that you made
friends with so many,
and lost touch with nearly all,
but the ones that you’ve kept,
will be a friend till the day
you die,
and they will be there to
cry for you
when you leave,
and that’s a friendship
that you should cherish
in the deepest sense.

This is the place that you fell
in love,
with the girl that was destined
for bigger and better things,
but she stayed with you,
though a lot of
“thick and thin,”
cause you made her mind believe,
and her heart weep.
But we weren’t meant to keep that
love,
as we both moved on,
and blossomed,
creating and developing
how we both thought we would
in the back of our minds.

There are so many recollections
I’m sure you have about this town.
So many sights and sounds
that’ll always stir up a memory,
but you’ve had your fill of it!
Bust out!
But in doing so,
remember the people that gave you
this chance to see the world,
change a handful of lives,
and to love again!

Some still live in the same house,
the same life,
and the same view,
that they’ve always enjoyed.
They may have not had the
curiosity,
the desire,
the hope,
the dreams,
that come in some of us.

Big dreams
in a small town
won’t work.
Sometimes big dreams in a big town
don’t work.
Find the balance,
think big,
live tomorrow today,
live today
thinking that tomorrow
might make yesterday
a little nervous!

Just last week I got
hit by another falling
bottle of fine wine
and woke up the next day
covered in party favors!

Boy, they sure seem to
never slow down.
I had an invite once,
to come up and join them,
but I second guessed it,
stayed home
and watched celebrity poker.

Maybe I should have taken that
chance though.
I’m too passive to get in the flow though
and just get up and go!
I get caught up doing what I always do.
Never setting foot outside just doin’
the things I always do.

They’re always laughing and smiling,
never having worries,
that hold you back,
keep you down,
lay you flat.

The inviter told me that
it’s like hearing your
favorite joke
for the first time,
over and
over
and over again.

Or maybe it’s like sleeping
out on a camping trip,
waking up
morning light,
warm,
hitting your face,
opening your eyes to the
deepest,
cleanest,
mountain breath
your lungs have ever tasted,
and you smile and realize
that this is a moment
you’ll want to live
1,000 more times!

Bustin’ out your worst,
not knowin’ or carin’
the result,
of the words your spin,
droppin’ dirty f-bombs
like you’ve never been.

Sometimes it just needs
to happen though!
It’s beggin’ to get out,
needs some feeds,
as it breathes,
asking for a chance to
show what’s hidin’,
kept from shinin’.

You’ve gotta let him out though,
or somethin’ worse might
happen.
He’s angry and wants to rage
at somethin’,
anythin’.

Can’t talk to him,
won’t talk to her,
just gonna let it sit,
in wait,
till somethin’ pushes
too hard, and again
it’ll bubble up,
askin’ to be set free,
wantin’ to see
goin’ on a blasphemy spree,
one,
two,
THREE!
Hell, this ain’t me!
I don’t agree!

Oh, it’s you,
I guarantee!

Keep it in and breathe,
Don’t let him leave,
tryin’ to deceive,
wipe it on your sleeve!