For two weeks you were mine in hand.
The friends of past all drifting off elsewhere,
You and I were breathing in one aura,
For the touch that had been anticipated.
Unassuming.
For three months your were mine in heart.
Time - too short to have any more.
Tears fell,
Scents faded,
Memories drifted,
Life unfolded…
Don’t think that it meant nothing, Because it did…
The tears were real,
The touch was genuine,
But mostly,
The memories are forever…
From the corner of my eye all the time,
I’d be talking to a person, but you were behind.
My eyes would sometimes critique you,
On what you’d say, or who you’d be with too!
Until the day I met you with a friend.
Your eyes so blue, deep, deep, never end.
I know you noticed me.
We talked long into the night.
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Yes, I knew you did.
I remember the times when you’d be looking for me.
I wanted you to find me;
I wanted you to take me new places.
I had envisioned many things with you,
I clearly wanted the man I couldn’t have.
I couldn’t be the woman I wanted to be,
I wanted you for your mind.
Your mind gave off vibes that I’m sure your heart mimicked.
Oh, to be yours for a night or two, or an eternity…
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We agreed it’d be better to call it off today.
The time and distance was too much to take.
A tear feel from my eye, but you never saw,
You never heard, cause I didn’t let it show.
I played it off like it was the right decision.
I knew it was what you wanted, I was holding you back.
You were the girl of my dreams, and I let you slip through my fingers.
But it won’t be permanent, cause I know I can get you back.
If you love something, let it go, so I did.
I knew in my heart, we were made for each other.
And when the time was right, we’d be back together.
A year has past now, and we haven’t kept much in touch.
I don’t know what you’ve done or if you care for me much.
But I thought I’d give you a call, cause I still need you.
Friends? Lovers? I don’t know but I need a part of you in me.
Your mom answered the phone and we caught up on the past.
I’ve always liked her and she told me about how you were.
She told me about how many times you used her shoulder for me.
Time and time again for the rough times we went through.
Some bad things I’ve done, some bad you’ve done.
But to this day, I’m still on your mind.
You talk about me to your mom nearly everyday still.
God, how that made me glow inside,
I’ve wanted to hear that for almost a year now.
I thought of asking for your new number,
But I asked for your address instead.
I didn’t know how or why, but I thought I’d give it a shot.
I asked your mom to keep it a secret,
Cause it was gonna be a surprise.
Thoughts rushed through my head as I cruised to your house.
My mind was wandering back and forth.
What would you think?
I knew you’d be happy to see me, right?
I’d run up to you and hold you in my arms and swear to never let you go again.
But apparently God had different plans for me.
Across the yellow line came the semi into my lane.
As my mind was drifting, thinking of you,
The 18-wheeler crushed my U-haul into the rail.
I’m sorry, I couldn’t have swerved, it was a corner.
I didn’t realize I couldn’t open my eyes,
my arms were limp, my breath was short.
Where was I? A few seconds were all it took to understand.
At least my last thoughts were the best I ever had.
I’m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier, I wished we had stayed together.
But I was so sure we’d be back together someday.
I guess I’ll have to wait a little longer now to have you forever.
But it won’t be permanent, cause I know I’ll get you back…
I forgot about you today…
I forgot about your gentle smile,
your warm touch,
your sweet smell,
I forgot about your soft hair,
your smooth skin,
and your flawless eyes.
I forgot about how you make me feel right when everything else feels wrong.
I forgot about how you make 4 days feel like 30 seconds.
I forgot about how I can’t help falling for you.
I forgot about how perfection has touched my hands.
I forgot about how thinking of you often brings tears to my eyes.
I forgot that you’d never break my heart.
Today I forgot about the sunflowers in your eyes.
I forgot about how you laugh at all my stupid jokes.
I forgot about how you think I hung the moon.
I forgot about how you changed my idea of perfect.
I forgot about how nobody has been a better friend to me.
I forgot about how so many of my friends think you’re also great.
I forgot about how you mean the world to me.
I forgot that you’ll be mine someday.
Today wasn’t any different from any other day though,
Cause I forget about you 1,000 times, everyday…
You hear about it,
but you never see the work
that goes in to it.
Yea - it’s greener,
it’s untouched,
unhandled,
unfelt
untrusted.
it’s easier for things to grow
in a dreamt atmosphere -
Our grass is a bit off-green
at the moment -
we haven’t had time to cut it,
water it,
feed it -
It’s got a few pet stains in it,
from 2 varmints I hate,
but you love,
so I love -
dirty diapers galore throughout
the house
from 2 of the most beautiful girls
you’ve ever seen.
Baby toys coming out our ears -
some still lost somewhere in our heads -
Our minds cluttered with tiresome ideas
we can’t correlate or stick together
because the night before was spent
not sleeping, but making sure the babies did -
delusions of grandeur have shifted
with the paths our lives had
constructed finding different goals and aspirations
where we want our lives to go -
The greener side seems like an open slate -
willing to accept and take any markings we put on it,
bidding our every concern and desire,
but it’s not the case -
the other side of the fence gets the same weather we do –
you just can’t see it from our windows -
It’s cold sometimes,
it’s rainy most times -
feels drab -
but I’ll take our side of the fence anyday -
We’ve started something we can be proud of -
Yea, it’s not a perfect green pasture anymore -
but it has new additions that WE’VE put there
created to stand,
mold from -
develop,
perfect.
The other side starts off green -
but every beginning starts off green -
you’re put in that field to mess it up,
create new colors,
new lives enriching the soil -
to build something better than just grass -
Yea, it’s muddy
and messy
building something new in brown grass -
but it’s a path I’m willing to help create -
it may be built out of snotty noses
and dirty diapers at the beginning -
but it’ll be more than a green grass at the end -
It takes some muddling through -
sleepless nights -
pointless fights -
not certain where the path will lead -
But it’s our path to create
Our journey to partake -
Our lives to make -
We started out pretty green -
planted a few new seeds
new flowers
our color changed here and there -
but I don’t need the greener grass -
I’ll take the colorful field anyday -
The more I try to forget about you,
The more it seems I can’t.
But eventually I’m gonna have to move on,
Cause you won’t be there to help me through it all anymore.
I’m gonna go out with other people,
Talk and try to have a good time.
Thinking of what you would have wore,
Or what you would have said;
Or when you would have leaned over the table to kiss me on the forehead
Cause I made that stupid face you always laugh at.
But it won’t be you and my heart knows the truth,
I try and I try to think about how it would be, with another you…
I can trick my mind, but my heart knows the truth.
You’ve torn at my heart time and time again,
Broke it more than I would have preferred,
Touched it in so many more ways,
That no one in my life has ever been able to do.
God, how hard it is to get over the one that “made you.”
Songs and memories are but a constant reminder.
I can’t see myself living a day without you,
You’ve left footprints on my heart,
And I’m so glad they’ll never be erased…
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